On the Move!

Constant movement.  I've been moving and moving and moving and I'm expecting to crash and burn at any moment... except that as part of this new lifestyle, I have tons more energy... so I think I'm good!  I have been getting up earlier and working out.... going to work early, working late... spending time with family and trying to keep myself honest with the food I'm eating.

It's definitely harder right now... PMS = chocolate cravings... Spring time = Easter candy... Easter candy = Cadbury Creme Eggs... my absolute favorite.  Whoever made those are just evil.  I went to Target recently and got some goodies for a close friend who was having a baby... I love to take things to the hospital that dad and visitors can munch on as well as give mommy something sweet to snack on after all is said and done.  I mean, all that work in delivering a baby, somebody betta bring me a candy bar!! <growl!>

So, confession time... I got a box of Cadbury Creme Eggs for my friend.... and I got a box for me.  You thought I was going to say I avoided it, huh?  Nope.  No lies here.  I did it.  I put it in the cart... I wheeled it to the register... and I knowingly paid for that box of evil.  Have I opened it?  Yes.  Have I tried one?  Yes.  But just one.  I didn't feel great after.  I felt more disappointed in myself than sick.  Just disappointed in my weakness.  But you know what?  We are all WEAK.  I don't care what anyone says.  If someone tells you they've been perfect and haven't cheated during something like this, whether dieting or exercising or post weight loss surgery, they... are... lying...!!!  You try to determine your limits.  You try to find things that you can snack on here and there to fulfill that taste craving you have.  It's not rocket science, folks.  It is what it is.  We are human and we are weak.

But let me just say, I am not taking advantage of this situation.  I knew when I selected this surgery that I was a cheater when it came to food.  That's precisely why I had this surgery.  I get sick when I eat (light) sour cream, but I don't when I eat an entire Cadbury Creme Egg?  Seriously?  What's wrong with this picture?  As soon as sour cream hits my stomach, no matter how large or small the amount, I have this internal burning sensation like someone has dropped 80 habanero peppers down my throat.  It's quite painful.  But I can eat a Cadbury Creme Egg and go to sleep?  Heh... little devilish eggs.  Pure evil those eggs.

Enough about the eggs.  I didn't get to work out a lot last week.  Work continues to prove busier than ever.  I guess that's a good thing because I come home, walk the dog for a mile or two, eat dinner (lately, Parm Encrusted Tilapia and veggie of choice), and head to bed.  I haven't been overeating or lazing around... just move from one task to the next to the next.  It keeps me honest.  Lunches consist of a wrap or burger without a bun or soup or whatever the healthy entree is at work.  Some days it's just fruit and some type of protein.  Some days it's at my desk and whatever I bring from home.  It is my life at the moment.  It is quite busy.

Good thing about that is, constant movement = constant weight/inches lost.  I've lost about .5 lb short of 50 lbs.  It has been 2 months and 4 days.  I'd say that's pretty darn good.  I have been retiring clothes here and there... and the jeans I wore this weekend will be retired for life... I took them off tonight without unbuttoning them.  I sat down in them at church this morning and my belt buckle was touching the center part of my bra.  My nephew walked around the house pulling his pants up acting like an old man to mock me.  It's time. They're done.  I have several pants like that.  Shirts, don't even get me started.  I had shirts I had bought back in the fall that I can't keep on my shoulders, much less cover up my chest with now.  Don't get me wrong, I'm thrilled I'm losing weight.  Just don't have the time to go shopping to find new stuff!!

So, I start swimming this week.  Hopefully going to get these arms and upper body shaped up.  Then mid-March I start training for FitTastic, the Run-Walk club.  That will be two days a week and will end with the Susan G. Komen race in June.  I'm excited about that!  I hear it's a great race - folks in the neighborhood on the route decorate their yards and cheer you on.  It's a big deal in the Triangle!

Well, going to catch up on some shows and then head to bed.  A new week of new and better choices starts tomorrow.  :)

For now,
Kells